Hi friends! I apologize my posts have been so sporadic this summer. I blame the new job…lack of recipe inspiration…and definitely the olympics.
I promised last week that I would provide a check in on my progress with healing my metabolism and my relationship with food. So…
Let’s start with the good.
- My hunger cues have come back! It’s been amazing to get hungry for meals and snacks and recognize that my body is burning through fuel properly and not “storing” it in case I restrict calories or a specific food group the next time I ate. It means that my body is learning to trust itself…which is awesome.
- It has been SUCH A RELIEF that no food is off-limits. It makes vacations, work lunches, weekends, or even snack cravings totally OK for whatever is placed in front of me or what I’m in the mood for. I can’t express how much that freedom means to me and how long it’s been since I’ve felt this way
- My rheumatoid arthritis is gone, for the time being. And I’m surely eating plenty of gluten and dairy! I contribute it to the lack of stress with food and the being gentle on my body with exercise
- Everyone is super supportive and wonderful. Nate, my parents, my friends, you name it. And I have a few friends who are going through similar journeys, and it’s great to just talk about it with someone who gets it
- I feel more present at mealtimes, because I’m not worried if I should only eat half my plate or comparing to what other people are eating. I can just enjoy my meal and the conversation
All that said, it hasn’t been a completely challenge-free ride.
- I feel fat. I’m not allowed to weigh myself right now, but I’m guessing I’ve put on a few pounds, maybe more. My clothes are tight. I go through phases where I feel OK with this, and other phases where I’m like, “but one of my best friend’s wedding is in 3 weeks and there will be photos!!” Cody (my nutritionist) assures me that once my body learns to trust itself, any extra energy it’s holding on to will be expended. But what if the weight I’ve gained isn’t “extra” and this is how my body is supposed to look?
- I don’t entirely feel like myself, or at least the person that I was accustomed to prior to this journey. Like I said, I feel fat. I’m not as obsessive about exercise or controlling about food. It’s been interesting getting to know this person and trying to be ok with it, especially since so many of my friends/family/coworkers know me as the very active and super healthy person. I doubt to them they even see a big difference, but I certainly feel different
To me, the good definitely outweighs the bad. So I’ll keep chugging (and eating) along!
Shoutout to Hayley Blake for the photo!






